8/31/05

Today has been so hard. This week actually has. I have been completely on edge at work. I think that I have the most helpless group of kindergarteners EVER. It is the 12th day of school and we are still working on lining up. They all just walk to the front. There are 21 now and the state max is 22. What jerk made up that ratio? Obviously someone that hadn't been in a kinder classroom since they were 6.

Mostly, I can kind of push the situation with Keiran to the back of my mind. I can still think of being pregnant and I can still think of how much I love her, but I can push the rest aside while I am at work. Not lately though. Lately it is always on the surface, just staring me in the face. I think it is because work has me completely frazzled. I have already had one child miss four days of school. I hope the rest of the year doesn't go like this.

Trey got off work early today (11:30) and offered to come and see me. I asked him what for. I eat lunch at 10:50 and I have no more breaks after that. I am such a grouch and I hate being this way. I know that I have so much to be happy about and thankful for. I am just having such a hard time seeing it right now. I am just so tired of being me. I need a break.

We get a three day weekend. Maybe I'll come back refreshed. I hope.