11/12/05

Oh my goodness! My hopes are officially UP! I tried to fight it as hard as I could, but it didn't work out for me. This morning I thought about what it would be like to hold her when she is actually alive. I haven't thought about that in months. I have even let myself hope that she might survive. If I am let down I can cope. It is so much nicer to have hope than to despair all of the time.