11/19/05

So the peri on Thursday asked if we wanted to induce. They said with healthy babies that had fallen this far behind they would, but they wanted to know what we wanted to do. It didn't feel right to me. I spoke with the OB yesterday and he agreed. He said that she is small because of a chromosomal abnormality. If we induce she will still have that chromosomal abnormality. There is really no sense in it. I am 30 weeks (TODAY!!!!) and he said that my cervix is not ready. He said it would be an awful ordeal to induce and he didn't want to put me through that. He's a great guy. We told him that we haven't planned on bringing a baby home and we wanted to know what our expectations should be. He said that we very well could bring a baby home and that she may even live until early childhood. Can you imagine? That would far exceed any expectations that we have had. My fondest wish was to hold her while she was still alive. This was too much to even hope for. I know that there is still a huge chance that we won't bring her home from the hospital, but I am willing to hope a little and deal with what comes.