11/27/05

Ok, I am a big whiny baby and it wasn't that awful. They mostly just ignored the fact that she has T13. Some of them congratulated me and asked my due date. Many of them said that they thought of us a lot and asked how we were. Trey's dad's first cousin was the only one who really talked with me about her. She told me that she appreciated all of the updates and thought about us a lot.

I keep getting e-mails from people saying things like, "I can't wait to meet her." The last e-mail that I sent out to friends and family said that there was a chance that she may be coming home. Apparently this translates to, "She's coming home, throw me a shower." I am so annoyed. I have a slightly estranged friend that is hell-bent on trying to come to my shower. Ummm....not having one. I have already discussed this in detail with friends and family. IF she gets to come home I would love to have a little party for her. Other than that, I want nothing.

People think that this chance she may come home is a sure thing. I can't quite explain why this upsets me so much, but it really does. I am such a realist about every thing that is going on with Keiran (well, I think I am). I am so tired of the Pollyanna act. I need people to understand what is going on and accept it right a long with me. Do I have hope? I sure do. I just hate how people are assuming that everything is ok now. It is not ok. It never will be ok. I guess when it isn't you going through it all, it is easier to dismiss plain facts. I just wish people would think first.

That all sounds really negative. I am not negative about all of this. I love my sweet girl (who had hiccups for the first time where I could feel it yesterday ). I just need to stay realistic so I don't get so blind-sided if something horrible happens.