10/21/05

I can't sleep. I took the day off because I have been sick all week and I just can't seem to shake it. There is just too much going on right now.

We had a good appointment with Keiran. The greatest thing happened too. I was in bed last night just looking at my belly (common pass time lately) and she kicked and I could see it! I called Trey over and he got to feel her kick over and over. He was so happy! It was great. We are thinking that she heard she weighed a whole 1lb 5oz and thought it was time to show off her size! Little stinker.

So my niece has been sick. She is seven months old today. She has been running high fevers for no reason. They took her to the doctor yesterday and the doctor told my sister to take her to the ER. They ran some tests and found that her white blood cell count was elevated. So my poor sister does research and comes back with this awful list that includes chronic bone marrow diseases and leukemia. She calls me and I have no idea what to say. I try and tell her not to worry, but I am worried too. I feel bad because she has been such a source of emotional support for me and now I don't know what to say to her. I am feeling very positive about it all and I hope that it is just a virus or something. The doctor was really kind of a dip though. She wouldn't answer her questions straight, which instantly leads one to think that there is something serious. They are growing a culture and we should hear back today. Prayers/good thoughts would be so greatly appreciated.

On top of all of this I found out that my uncle most likely has cancer in his mouth and my grandmother is either in the early stages of emphysema or has lung cancer. Also, if anyone reading this has any prayers left in them....

On Wednesday, a sixth grader at my school had a seizure. She has these quite frequently and no one was overly concerened. Then for some unknown reason she went into cardiac arrest. Thank God my school has a defibrillator (we lost a student in the district two years ago and have then since gotten them on all of the campuses) and they got her heart started and did artificial respiration until the ambulance arrived. She is now in the PICU at our (awesome) local children's hospital. They are unsure about brain damage though. They have put her in a coma and have given her a 50% chance of survival. Her little brother is in my class and so we all made him cards to cheer him up. He probably has no idea what is really going on. He is only 5. I really hope that he doesn't come back to school today since I am not there. He has enough stress right now.

Ok, I am done bringing everyone down. Somehow writing lightens my load just a little. Not enough to take away the headaches though. I think I am going to lie down and try to sleep some more.